Compare and Contrast

So as I mentioned before, I LOVE my new birthday gift. So now you all will be flooded with videos of Carson, I'm sure you're all extremely disappointed. Haha! :) Not too much new has been going on at our house. Still nothing on the job search. I can't believe how bad it is. It's just frustrating. I didn't go to any college which, until this point, has never been an issue. Now I'm finding I can't even submit an application for a job without a 2yr degree. UGH!

So for now I have been focusing on organizing Pampered Chef and seeing how I can make that successful for me. I have 2 shows in March which I'm looking forward to, my goal is to have 5 shows in March. We'll see if I can get there! I've temporarily made my kitchen table into a desk but the clutter/mess is starting to drive me nuts so it needs to be able to be put away daily. I think I almost have everything organized enough to make that happen!

My old company started the move into the new building today. I think that's the one thing I'm most upset about, I did a lot of work prepping to move and worked for 2 years in a really crappy building just waiting for the move. And I don't get to work in the new building. But I keep reminding myself that this is not my loss and that the company seriously does not care about it's employees. I am sure of this seeing as how the week after the layoffs in January the executives received some really nice bonuses. Some to the tune of $50,000.00!!!! If the cared at all, they would've taken pay cuts, cut bonuses etc. But no, they do not care and I do not want to work for a company like that.

Carson and I have been getting along great. The only time he wants nothing to do with me is bedtime. Usually Dave is home and Carson will fight me but allow Dave to do bedtime stuff (brush teeth, change clothes). If it's just me and him there is no fighting. Only if Dave is home. It makes me laugh.

We had a 24 flu bug come through the house Sunday/Monday/Tuesday. Dave had it Sunday/Monday I had it Monday/Tuesday. Either Carson brought it home (he threw up once on Friday but that was it) or he hasn't been affected by it. It was completely miserable and I'm so glad that if Carson did have it on Friday it wasn't to the extent that Dave and I had it. I didn't sleep at all on Monday night and Tuesday could hardly leave the couch with body aches and fatigue. I'm for sure glad to be done with that noise!!

Well I'll leave you with a few pictures of my new Flip! This will give you a good idea of exactly how small it is!! Also, I'll leave you with a great video of Carson doing animal sounds and being a bit silly!

No News is Good News? Not if Your Job Hunting!

So, I have not heard anything from UHG yet...I called and left a message but no return phone call yet. They were supposed to be making calls last week. I feel that this is not a positive thing. Ugh. I'm beginning to get frustrated. Meanwhile I have applied to about 7 million other jobs in hopes of at least getting a phone call. No such luck.

See some of you at the candle party tomorrow night!

I love 2 years old

I'm not going to apologize for being away...I do that a lot and it doesn't seem to help. Haha, but I have been away for a while again. Sometimes after sitting in front of a computer all day long makes you not want to sit in front of it when you get home. But, luckily? for you guys...un-luckily for me I no longer sit in front of a computer all day long. As most of you know I was laid off from my job a few weeks ago so I should have plenty of time not only to take pictures of Carson but to share them with you all...Although, my updates might be slightly boring now that I have nothing to do with my days! :)

Carson told me to 'shut up' last night. He hears us tell the dogs to shut up so I'm sure he's heard it and also knows what it means. It was so hard not to crack up. Not sure how to handle that one yet. Since I wrote last we've been through both strep throat and pink eye. Good times, fun stuff. Strep was way worse I think because he had the fever and the feeling icky. Pink eye was just nasty eyes and no fun drops.

We also have started swimming lessons at the YMCA near us. Carson loves being in the water but I'm not sure how I feel about the lessons yet. They are really a just get your child comfortable in the water type thing. Carson loves the water and doesn't seem to be afraid at all. But, he does not have the tolerance for the instruction. He just wants to play and blow bubbles. I think we might hold off on the next round until he's a bit older and just take him to play in the water instead of actual lessons.

Back at Christmas time, my friend and I went shopping at the Mall of America, because of the amount of money we spent then (too much) we got a certificate for 2 unlimited ride wristbands at the new Nickelodeon Universe (my head still thinks Camp Snoopy by the way) anyway they expire in March so we took the kids there today to ride on the rides and hang out. Carson had a BLAST. There were a few rides that I looked at that I said 50/50 shot of him crying, he didn't even come close once. Every ride he said 'wheeeeeeee' and once it stopped, he said 'AGAIN!'. I'm glad he enjoyed it. But, because he is still too short, every ride required a chaperone and after about 5 rides I had enough of the going in circles. We took a lunch break and went to Build-a-Bear after. We had a great day and despite the fact that Carson is cutting his molars he was in a great mood and behaved the whole day!

Dave is out of town for work until Wednesday night so now I am home all day, home all night by myself. I think these days will probably drag by without a job to keep me occupied. Love you all and talk to you soon! I'll leave you with a few pictures of today's adventures!

Loss

At my follow up ultrasound on Friday I was told that they baby's heart was no longer beating.  It had stopped a few days prior.  We're all doing ok, as I understand that these things can happen early on and usually there is a very good reason chromosomal or whatever.

Not sure what the plan is yet...at this point I'm not quite ready for a do-over.  The first few months of pregnancy are full of enough uncertainties, that I can't imagine going through that with the weight of this as well.  I will say that any future pregnancy announcement will come well beyond the danger zone of the first trimester.  So don't be surprised if one day I'm like 20 weeks pregnant and we didn't tell anyone!! Haha, we probably won't wait that long but we will definitely wait longer than we did.

I think the hardest part is telling people.  Especially because they don't know what to say.  Well, I'll let you all know, as much as it sucks and as sad as it is, I'm OK.  I'm handling it very well because I know it's nothing I did or didn't do and at this point it just wasn't meant to be.

We will add to our family when the time is right.  I'm not sure what this will mean as far as when we are supposed to leave.  We have another request in for a 12 month extension but if that does not go through then we may be leaving in December.  We will of course keep everyone updated as soon as we know anything more.

For now, I will leave you with a picture of the BEST mood lifter ever!