Loss

At my follow up ultrasound on Friday I was told that they baby's heart was no longer beating.  It had stopped a few days prior.  We're all doing ok, as I understand that these things can happen early on and usually there is a very good reason chromosomal or whatever.

Not sure what the plan is yet...at this point I'm not quite ready for a do-over.  The first few months of pregnancy are full of enough uncertainties, that I can't imagine going through that with the weight of this as well.  I will say that any future pregnancy announcement will come well beyond the danger zone of the first trimester.  So don't be surprised if one day I'm like 20 weeks pregnant and we didn't tell anyone!! Haha, we probably won't wait that long but we will definitely wait longer than we did.

I think the hardest part is telling people.  Especially because they don't know what to say.  Well, I'll let you all know, as much as it sucks and as sad as it is, I'm OK.  I'm handling it very well because I know it's nothing I did or didn't do and at this point it just wasn't meant to be.

We will add to our family when the time is right.  I'm not sure what this will mean as far as when we are supposed to leave.  We have another request in for a 12 month extension but if that does not go through then we may be leaving in December.  We will of course keep everyone updated as soon as we know anything more.

For now, I will leave you with a picture of the BEST mood lifter ever! 

Rainy Days

I'm getting sick of the rainy dreary weather.  It's good for our lawn at least!

We've been getting bombarded with every construction company within a 100 mile radius, calling, knocking on our door, leaving fliers.  It's annoying.  People are really pressuring when they stop by for you to set up an inspection immediately and get angry when you don't. I'm sorry but dude, I have ZERO idea who you are and I've never heard of your company I don't think I'm gonna set anything up with you.  This guy called the house and strictly went by Jerome...no company name or anything.  It's like seriously?  I'm not that much of a moron.

We had a great time over at Dave's mom's house on Monday.  Too bad the weather wasn't warmer.  She has a fantastic view of Lake Minnetonka and it would've been nice to be able to be outside more to enjoy it.  But it was just a bit too cold and icky.  We'll have to get over there more this summer and enjoy the lake!

Dave will be out of town next week...he'll be in Chicago for a Navy class.  My sister is coming to stay with me to help with Carson.  I have a small bleed near the baby and instead of getting better over the last week it got slightly larger so I need to avoid lifting Carson (HA!) so I will need some help with Dave being gone.  Luckily she will be able to be here almost all week.

I'll have another follow up ultrasound next week, probably Friday to check in and make sure the bleed isn't getting any bigger and hopefully I'll be able to take it easy enough that it will be resolving itself.  I had the exact same thing with Carson and it ended up being no big deal so we'll hope that we follow the same path this time around.

Talk to you all soon!